I'm still alive!

Yeah, even if it seems I'm not!
The last few weeks have been really busy! I enjoyed finally having my hubby back from wlc, then spendingt long weekends at my moms house, since we still don't have any orders!
Last Friday we went to Frankfurt to the special doc to get my medical fir the visa done. It wasn't too bad! Of course I was scared before the appointment!
We had to get up really early( they do walk ins only!) and drove 1 1/2 hours from my moms house to Frankfurt. It started out bad because we did not find any parking in the street the doc was. So we just parked somewhere where it was forbidden to park and Clay wanted to go back and just try to find another spot somewhere. When we gt to the doc office I just asked the ladies and of course they had parking behind the building, lol, we just did not see it! I went inside and got a number( I was the 3rd person that day) and they told me to go upstairs. There a lady greeted me and gave me a piece of paper I had to fill out. They jsut wanted to know what kind of illnesses I have and my address and so on... After around 10 minutes she called me inside a tiny office and just went through the paper I just filled out, took my weight and I had to pay the money. She gave me a receipt for the bloodwork and send me downstairs again. There they took an xray from my torso and took some blood too, then I had to go upstairs again and wait for the real doctor. We waited for around20 minutes, then I was called inside, He took my blood pressure,listened to my heart and lungs ans asked me some questions. He then told me I should loose some weight and then I was already done! We just spent 1 1/2 hours over there total.We were lucky,I heard stories of other people waiting 4 hours!!!
Now I'm only waiting to hear back from the Konsulat,so I know when my interview is!

Right now I'm barely blogging because I have my hands full with a teething Linus who wants my attention the whole time.I'm even struggling to do all the household chores somedays! thats how bad it is right now!!!!I will have more time this weekend when Clay can take over!

Life is a bitch!

well, since you already know the last few days were no good ones but it seems they are getting worse and worse every day!
The last few days I was just feeling miserable, had a headache all the time( what of course I still have and doesnt seem to want to go away...) and I was just missing Clay like crazy! Nothing seemed right and nothing wanted to go right either! I was pretty pissed this morning because I seriously HATE some people on my facebook!I should realy go ahead and just delete it or delte everyone except my hubby and my family. But even then people would just complain and ask, hey why did u delete me! I'm so annoyed! Anyway, this morning there was something on facebook that made me REALLY mad! Last night I left a status on there that I'm sick and tired of being alone and sick and tired of being a single mommy. This one girl, she always knows everything better ugh, was like, yeah thats the army life sweetheart but u dont have to wait too much longer. Stuff like that always makes me mad. Seriously, I've been married for more then 2 years now and I know by know how its like to be married to a soldier. But still,every now and then I'm just sick of it and why am I not allowed to post so on my own facebook? Well,that was not all, after that I wrote, that normally stuff like wlc AND a deployment is not that close together ( my hubby came home from a 1 year deployment and he was only home  for 1 month until he went to wlc for almost another month) and that I'm just ready to be a normal family again... The the real crap just started.... She was like ( I am going to leave most of the stuff out, since its really stupid!) yeah but when I was aone in Alaska and I gave birth alone and my hubby was gone for 15 months! URGH, I am sick and tired of Army wives like that! Why is there always that stupid game, my hubby was gone longer, I was in the most horrible state ( or insert least favorite post or duty station here!), I gave birht alone or birht alone to the most kids... I HATE THAT! SHUT THE FUCK UP! the topping to that was, that she said, if I would have stayed in Bavaria, I would have been able to see my hubby every now and then AND  that my hubby volunteered to do wlc that close to a deployment because they normally dont do that. mhm yeah of course! My hubby just missed the birth of his first son and the first 6 months too, OF COURSE he signed up for it voluntarily NOT! LOL, sometimes I really wonder.... And I really did not miss the undertone,that ,if I would be the perfect good Army wife, I would have stayed in Bavaria and waited for my hubby. You have to know that I'm home with my family right now, because we are  pcsing really soon and then I'm goign to be in another country.... think about it! of course I want to spent time with my family! Really, if you have nothing nice to say,just dont say anything at all:(
I am glad thAT I  did not stay in Bavaria, because first they told my hubby that he would be able to go home every night and then on the first day of wlc they said,nope, you have to stay here the whole 3 weeks. How stupid is that?
Sorry, I really had to vent a little and I have to say I feel better now...

BUT that's not all...

I have to go to a certain kind of doctor in Frankfurt in order to get my visa to pcs to the States. My hubby wants me to do that this week, since Frankfurt is only 1 hour away from my parents house. Problem is,that somebody needs to come with me,because after I got my blood take I'm seriously not able to do much anymore,also not drive back home (yeah it really is that bad:(  )  My mom wanted to come with me but she is scared to drive back home through the city of Frankfurt. None of my friends or other family got time to drive me that early in the morning,because they all work or go to school....

that still is not all...

today I went to the doc with my mom. She had her thyroids checked out because her doc was a little worried. She was actually only prepared to go in there and being told that she has to take iron pills. Well, the doc told her that she needs surgery because it looks pretty bad and it could even be cancer. We dont know anything at this point, but we for sure need prayers our way.
It would also be horrible of me to ask her to come to Frankfurt with me, since she is devastated now and I mean who can blame her? She wont find anything out in particular until the blood results are in and she is going back to the doc. Until then we will be just hoping and praying...

So I'm just sitting here wondering. I have no clue what to do, have no clue what to think, have no cluewhat to tell my mom to make it a little better... Life just sucks right now:(

shots suck:(

I went to Landstuhl today and got my immunizations updated. Another big step closer to having the visa:) Next week I'll go to the special Doc in Frankfurt( I will have to pay 140 euro for that!) and then my interview at the Konsulat and then I'm done:)

yay!!!

I know, I suck

I am not a good blogger AND WAY too busy to blog lol
It's been forever since I wrote last and what should I say? Sorry?
Most of all I feel sorry for myself, because I really would love to blog more, but I never find the time too and then when a few days or lets better say weeks have passed I have no clue how to write about all the things that happened in the 5 or maybe 10 minutes little Linus give me...
Well, I should try to tell you what happened since I wrote last...
My lovely husband has been home since June 1st:) It's been perfect since he is home and to be honest I have no clue how I manged all of it without him! Every homecoming I'm not just excited, I'm also scared if something will be different or this time, if Linus will be ok, will he cry? etc Linus did great( even with out homecoming being in the middle of the night( I think it was 3 am?). He did not cry when daddy held him for the first time:) He was a real trooper and I had the feeling that he knew and felt exactly that this is hid daddy:) <3

After homecoming Clay did a 5 day reintegration and after that he took some leave days( we want to take most of the leave days when we PCS). We spent most of our leave at my moms and grannys house, since we still don't know how much longer we will have in Germany! We had a great time visiting family, having lots of BBQs in the backyard and also celebrating my Birthday with my family and friends here:) Oh and as you can see on on of these pics, Linus finally got a highchair too:) He LOVES it!

We also started my visa and went to the Konsulat in Frankfurt. I have to say it was a real adventure! We had to wait forever but thank we got all of it done and now I only need to update and renew all my shots and go to a Doctor and then I can go to Frankfurt again, for the interview. Wish me luck that we get all of this done in time lol Right now,we are not the fastest people...

We also visited the River Rhine, since my mom wanted to look at her school where she is going to be a student teacher and she needed to find an appartment too. We had a great time there:) The area is so beautiful!

During our leave we left Linus 4 days with my mom and granny and spent 3 nights in London all by our selfs. Let me tell you, the day we left Germany I cried because I felt horrible for leave Linus behind. It was the first time that I wasn't with him at night and it was horrible. We checked on him everyday by stalking my mom and writing her e mails all the time, asking if everything is ok etc...

BUT we had a wonderful time in London too. It was good for us and our married life to be alone for a change and London was great. I lost another pair of shoes( please, next time we go and take a trip to a city, remind me that I need a GREAT pair of shoes for walking around! In Paris I did the same mistake and my poor poor feet suffered A LOT. This time I had a lot of blisters again and it for sure is no fun at all, to walk hours and hours around in a city with them...I have to say, I had a lot of pain lol
London was great and we saw A LOT, but we loved Paris more:) Our BB was wonderful( except the lack of privacy in our room, but more about that another time lol)

When we came back ,we spent a few more days with my mom and granny again and then we left Linus with them again. We went back to Vilseck to get some things done( only for 2 nights though). Then Clay drove me back and spent the weekend with us,before he went back to Vilseck alone to start wlc. They told him that he would be able to come home at night, but he knew that he would be working from 5 am til 9 pm, so we decided that I stay here a few more weeks, until his wlc is over. Thank god we did, because on the first day they told him that he is not allowed to go home! ARMY, no comment! lol

So as of right now,we are just trying to pass the time and days until the 22nd, then his wlc is over and he will be coming back to get us:) We can't wait, we really miss him terribly! I have to say since he only came home a month ago and was gone for 1 year, saying goodbye sucked A LOT this time! It was even hard on mu hubby:( But it's not too long this time:) I really can't wait to have him back home with us:)

ok, I guess that was a good update on what happened since May:) Let's hope and pray I post a little more often again lol
There is always hope right?